I met my younger self for coffee today. She showed up stressed, her shoulders tight from carrying pressures and burdens she didn’t yet have words for. Chronic back pain made it hard for her to sit for more than ten minutes. I told her, your body is carrying so much. It won’t always be this way. She was in her 20s, feeling lost, chasing after security, success…a sense of worth and safety. But no matter what job, relationship, or city she ran to, she couldn’t sit still. She felt stuck, like her voice was buried somewhere deep inside. She longed to create, to express, but something blocked her. I told her, you’re carrying generations of silenced stories, but one day your voice will flow freely.

You know those rare, out-of-body moments where you just want to freeze time and soak it all in? Like, WOW, this is incredible…let me download this straight into my heart forever. That’s exactly how I felt a few weeks ago, sitting cross-legged on the floor of a fluorescent-lit room at the local library. Around me: a chaotic spread of tambourines, shakers, a giant communal drum, and a sea of giggling babies with their parents. It was Teo’s very first music class—Baby Band—and it was pure magic. 🤩

Being an eldest daughter and a 누나 (“noona,” or older sister) has been a huge part of my identity. I mean, how could it not? My earliest life memory is when I was 4 years old sitting in our Seoul apartment, wearing a ballet tutu and my Minnie Mouse headband, bottle-feeding my 6-month-old brother. It’s almost like my life began when my brother was born and I became a noona, according to my memory.

Hello! Can you believe we’re halfway through June already?! It’s been 2 months since I gave birth to my son, and it feels like I’m coming out of a hazy magical challenging fog of postpartum recovery, breastfeeding, bonding, and learning a whole lot of new skills all at once. I’m running on a few hours of sleep per night and feeling delirious and exhausted, but whenever I see my little boy smile and hear him coo, it makes my heart burst with bliss. 🥹🤩❤️‍🔥

A question I’ve been receiving from clients and collaborators recently is a variation of: What’s been helping you expand into motherhood with pleasure? I love this question because it touches on a topic I’ve been thinking a lot about these day. The idea of a village. The concept of a village is not new; it’s ancestral. And in this modern day, cultivating your village can look different for everyone. As for me and my journey of pregnancy and expansion into motherhood, being open to receiving support from people around me has been instrumental to helping me feel more resourced and less alone.

My word for 2023 was Pleasure. It’s a charged word, I’ve noticed, when I shared my intention with others—some responded with a hint of discomfort, others with delightful resonance, most were curious to learn more.

Happy lunar new year and 설날 (seollal, Korean new year)! It’s officially the year of the DRAGON. 🐉 How are we feeling? Personally, I’ve reached the point in my pregnancy where my body feels pretty uncomfortable. I won’t burden you with my full list of symptoms, but let’s just say the goal is no longer to find a comfortable position—realistically, it’s to find a position that is as comfortable as my body allows. My tiktok has inevitably turned into pregnant-tok, and one of the staples you might find in this corner of the internet is: a pregnant mama wakes up from her third nap of the day and is asked, “What’d you do today?” and she sassily responds with something like, “I grew a pair of kidneys and lungs, what’d you do today?”

Happy full moon~ 🐺🔥 I’m writing you with a smile on my face because just as I began typing, my baby started hiccuping in my belly. Entering my third trimester this week, I’ve noticed that these hiccups have gotten STRONG. Although it’s a bit of a strange sensation of rhythmic pulsing in my belly, it always makes me smile visualizing him hiccuping and floating in the amniotic fluid of my womb.

It's me, Eunice. It’s been a while…how have you been lately? I'm writing you from Claremont, CA where I've recently moved (back) to, and my body’s been feeling the slowwwwness of winter especially these past few weeks. Despite all the commotion around new year’s resolutions and post-holiday back-to-work “full steam ahead” shenanigans, my body’s mostly been in yin mode, recovering from 2023 and embracing the reflective, introspective, cozy, bundled up hibernation vibes of the season as much as possible. Probably also has something to do with the fact that as some of you know, I am pregnant!